i nv intend to...
i nv intend to argue wif him
but i always cant stand the way he's takin things so lightly
y doesnt he even wan to tk the effort to make things up?
y doesnt he even appreciate y i'm tryin to make the effort to mae everythin last?
y can he forget abt so many things juz lidat?
how can he forget wadeva happened in the past n juz go lidat?

i nv intend to call him when i noe tt he has things on
but sths i juz dun wish to hang up cuz i noe when he said he'll tok to mi again, he will nv cal..

i dunno, sths i tink i'm juz worthless in his eyes.. he no longer has the feel for mi....
he no longer wans n bothers to bring mi out to meet his frenz....
all he can find is oth excuses nt to bring mi out.. lyk stan already made bookings, it's freda's bdae party.... things i find tt oth ppl rly wen mind, but he does mind..
alot of things r dependent on him, but it's him who keep pushin it away n juz dun wanna make any efforts for those things...

will he regret if i juz suddenly die tml? or someday? will he regret tt he's nt treatin mi nicely for at least today? will he regret tt he actually didnt wan to meet mi? will he feel bad tt we didnt spend enuff time tght on my last few days? will he feel bad abt how he tok to mi n pushed mi away?

i dunno, but i juz tel myself tt he wldnt, i guess...

even if he regrets, it might rly b too late....