Tuesday, December 25, 2007

all i wan for xmas... is u...

so!

was out wif him, weiric n louis for dinner in the evenin juz nw at amk fish n co..

earlier on woke up ard 12 plus..

was woken up by mum.. she asked mi whether i wanted to tok to my cousin who came from malaysia..

so i agreed.. n after awhile, i asked my cousin whether she's goin off soon (she n another 2 cousins were in mummy's office..)

n i knew tt they're goin out wif my aunt n uncle.. so decided to tk a cab down to office n at least c them..

been long since i last saw them anyway..

tok abt diff stuff..

o ya! gt msn add from them.. nearly forgot =xx

but anyway..

i reached bishan ard 5 plus wif jie n girl..

den after which i went to food junction wif them.. they went to eat n i sat there.. while waitin for the guys to reach..

den after they reached, we went to action city for awhile.. wanted to get presents for jie n girl there.. but cldnt find anythin suitable for girl..

weiric said i changed alot..

duno it's for the beta or for the worse anyway =xx

haha.. muz b referrin to my contacts..

took 88 to amk hub..

waited to b seated...

after dinner, shawn's gonna meet his cousin, stan to go to zouk..

for a moment, was tinkin tt i shd juz go there.. since it's hols... n mum said tt i cld go hm late..

but from the expression he gave, it doesnt seem lyk he rly wants mi to go.. mayb he's juz worried..

told him i will go hm myself.. so he cld meet wendy n stan earlier..

felt tt i've been a gd girl today.. hehe.. =x

at least i was understandin enuff to let him tok to his frenz while i go look ard the shops myself (okie.. there wasnt anythin for mi to c -.-)

n he promised tt he'll msg mi every hr... after which he said every 45 mins..

i didnt rly need him to msg him every 45mins or hr..

but at least msg.. he didnt msg...

he reached earlier.. n i tot for tt few hrs he cld haf dropped mi an sms..

den he sent mi an sms ard 12 wishin mi merry xmas..

i called him.. n found out tt he was alone.. stan n his frenz were elsewhere.. n he was waitin for them to come back..

he didnt sound veri happy.. or rather, he sounded quite sian..

didnt rly noe wad to say when i hear him soundin so sian..

n after they came back, he said he'll msg mi ltr...

so ard or more den an hr ltr, he msg mi (which is also nw..), askin mi to go slp 1st..

okie.. n i tot he rly meant it when he said he will sms mi every hr.. (nt rly expectin it.. but still, it's a disappointment when i tink of it...)

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btw, merry xmas!! =)

~ { 2:16 AM }
aiming for the sky above;

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

somehow....

somehow i rmb wad i promised myself..
but i still agreed to go...
gonna meet him for the movie 'enchanted' tml at 12.. =)

~ { 12:56 AM }
aiming for the sky above;

Monday, December 17, 2007

y? y? y?

gosh.. tinkin abt wad will happen if i were to b doin my fyp n attachment.. damn stressed nw.. wad else can i do?
tinkin abt it makes mi veri afraid..
wad if i fail? *choy la.. but things do happen sths*

nt feelin veri gd abt the pacman project already.. cuz i cldnt help much in the project... definitely nt as much as zm n sherman.. cuz they've done much more n even beta.. if i were to do wad they've done.. i dun tink i can even meet their standard of the game..
gonna admit.. when it comes to programming, i rly cant do it... as in, cant do much..
n as much as i wan to help, i juz dunno how to.. yes, we had to hand up 2 TDDs tght wif the project.. so i finished my part for the programming n told zm tt i'll move on to start on the tdds 1st.. cuz i noe tt they wen b able to haf much time for the tdds..

n yeap, i started on the tdds 1st.. but as much as i wld lyk to lighten their wkload.. the reports r after all, technical documents.. n while i can do all the theory parts in the documents.. i cldnt rly help them wifthe tech parts.. except to tel them 'code objects' is to put in the functions etc.. lyk juz leave little notes for them to read n let them put wadeva is needed inside.. cuz i cldnt help wif much of the programming, i wldnt noe their functions n wad the fuctions do.. so, yup... i told zm wad to include in the document parts.. n got him to fill them in.. the rest of the theory qns.... lyk 'game description'... i juz did wadeva i cld.. tt's all..

mayb they noe i cant help them wif much stuff either.. til i asked zm abt wad i need to do.. den he told mi to do the main menu.. the rest of the gameplay n map was handled by him n sherman.. i even tot tt they didnt haf the intention to let mi do at all...

i dunno wad i can do after i graduate.. dunno whether i shd continue studyin or juz go to wk.. but if i were to go wk juz lidat... will a dip b enuff? alot of jobs require an individual to haf a degree.. n a biz degree at tt... (for the job i wan, yes..)

there's so many things i wan to do.. i wan to wk n earn money.. i wan to do the things i lyk.. n get the things i wan.. i wan to get things for my family, for my loved ones.. i wan to go shoppin wif my sisters, n when they c sth they lyk.. i can juz get it for them..

i can communicate pretty well.. can get along quite well wif ppl.. n was tinkin of the diff job opportunities.. wanted to lyk set up a blog n if anyone has any prob, come haf a relaxing chat or sth lidat.. no, nt the normal chat services guess.. n definitely nt those dating services.. is those kind which will allow ppl to b able to haf someone to tok to if they need any advice.. or simply juz someone to tok to.. but i'm also nt veri sure whether i need anythin else (lyk any oth qualifications related if i'm tokin abt advising ppl.. nt as a psychologist definitely... but wadeva u wk as, u need to haf certain kinds of qualifications??) to get it started.. or can i juz start? nt sure abt it...

i wan to wk n earn money! =(

~ { 10:14 PM }
aiming for the sky above;

throwing everythin out...

throwing everythin out... every little memory i haf.. dun wan to tink of it anymore..

i've promised myself tt.. i've said it.. n nw's the time to do it.. =)

~ { 3:40 AM }
aiming for the sky above;

no.... nt at all...

he's callin nw.. but no.. i've promised myself... =)

~ { 3:35 AM }
aiming for the sky above;

juz a link..

n if he tinks tt i was too engrossed in chattin n didnt slp juz cuz of diz... den...

http://www.edmw.sg/viewtopic.php?f=15&t=42561&st=0&sk=t&sd=a&start=24660

=)

i felt tt i've done wadeva i can... so let the past juz b memories.. =)

~ { 3:33 AM }
aiming for the sky above;

maybe....

maybe.. maybe he doesnt understand mi in the 1st place.. maybe.. he onli tinks i enjoys chatting wif oth ppl but nt him.. maybe.. he tinks tt i didnt slp cuz i'm too engrossed in chattin in the forum.. maybe.. he tinks tt i didnt wan to slp juz to chat in the forum.. maybe he tinks tt i was so bz chattin in the forum til i didnt reply him on msn.. tt's y he said.. 'enjoy chattin bah..'

n maybe.. those above r juz my assumptions...

~ { 3:28 AM }
aiming for the sky above;

maybe....

mayb from the mornin onwards.. he will ceased to exist in my life... tt's... maybe... =)

~ { 3:27 AM }
aiming for the sky above;

nt at all...

i'm nt happy.. nt at all.. i even spammed emots in forum... hahaha.. wad's the big deal? at most -2k la.. ;)

i'm feelin so so so damn bloody hungry nw... -.-

juz wanna eat..

n wad m i doin nw? spammin my blog??

~ { 3:22 AM }
aiming for the sky above;

wadeva it is...

i'm nt gonna reply.. no...

~ { 3:11 AM }
aiming for the sky above;

wadeva it is..

dun tel mi how much u love mi..

i'm bursting..

it snapped, it broke.. it can nv b recovered again.. =)

~ { 3:05 AM }
aiming for the sky above;

the irony...

the one whom i need always upsets mi.. but the one whom i dun need is always there for mi...

~ { 2:55 AM }
aiming for the sky above;

fucked up times nw..

juz as i was tinkin abt the past, u mentioned tt u missed the old times.. i missed it too.. but it always seem too impossible to haf it back.. nt gonna tink abt it.. might juz forget everythin.. if u tink tt i'm denying u, tt's y ur denying mi.. anythin.. if u say so.. =)

sick n tired of tinkin abt it anyway.. doin nth doesnt mean u can haf the past back juz lidat..
so stop sayin ur afraid of over-reactin or wadsoeva..

i told u abt wad brian said.. n u said 'tt's swt of him.. to actually say tt he'll bring the cosfest to u..'
n i told u.. 'he's nt the onli one who said tt..'
n u didnt ask who..
rite, shdnt haf expected u to ask anyway..
u wldnt haf guessed it's u either...
it's okie den.. wadeva shd b forgotten, ought to b forgotten.. nth is left for us to tink abt anyway.. =)

go ahead n get all tough n b the man u wan to b.. the cool, mean(u said ur nt, but sry, who cares cuz i tink u r?), dun-wan-to-overreact guy.. go ahead..

i'm tired from cryin.. n i will, shd n muz nt cry over u again.. =)

~ { 2:33 AM }
aiming for the sky above;

missing it..

i miss the old times...

~ { 1:53 AM }
aiming for the sky above;

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