girl was sayin tt i look nice wif diz hairstyle.. she even wanted mi to bring her there! but i told her nt nw la.. i dun wan her to risk gettin caught in sch... dun tink she will pin her hair up anyway..
after rc today, went to novena wif him... to get his facial scrub.. heard from him tt it's rly gd....
costs 37 i tink..... made from organic products...
had kfc for dinner.. was rather quiet durin dinner... cuz wasnt rly happy abt wad's gonna happen for the next few days....
1st, he's nt gonna fetch my cousin, meryl wif mi.. n he had promised tt he will do it.... been a wk, but he didnt... it's okie if it's wk, but if it's cuz he overslept, somehow i feel tt it's nt rly a reason??
2nd, he said he will spend more time wif mi, b4 my sch reopen... fyi, it's next wk... so we're left wif fri n sat evenin...
he said he'll meet mi tml in the noon, but i seriously doubt he can wake up on time n meet mi at 12? cuz at diz time, 4.50am, he's still at his fren's hse... so, ya...
sths i wonder whether i do detest him, othwise whether the love is still there, or even whether i'm numb to it or nt... i dunno, n i dun rly wan to tink abt it.. cuz all i can do is to tink, tink n tink.. nth much.... i get rly disappointed at times n all i can is to tel him. but wad's the pnt of tellin him when there's nth he's doin, even to meet mi on time... ya, he can definitely get a cab.. but ultimately, he still wen b able to make it on time...
so ya, do tok abt spendin more time wif mi b4 sch reopens..... =)
bear wif mi abit longer, juz wanna rant as diz is the onli resort =p
i might b abit too sensitive sths, u can blame it on mi, but den again, i'm disturbed by the fact tt i might nt mean much anymore....
it's lyk there's certain things, i might juz haf given up on....
eg: i reached xxx's hse le.. msg u ltr..
n u noe wad? i didnt even bother to reply cuz i noe he probably wen reply or b too concentrated on his frenz....
i wanted to tel him when i was on the bus to novena wif him today..
wanted to ask him whether he can b abit more 'auto'... dun juz care abt he n his frenz, abt himself, abt the fun he might nv get...
look beside him, who is the one sittin beside him? nobody?? nth??
i get sick n tired of tellin him over n over again abt spendin time tght.. so i didnt tel him anythin.
ya great, go on n haf his own share of fun....
cuz i've told him b4... if i dun even haf the feeling there, i probably wen haf the feelin when he goes into NS...
ya it's true..... it's true tt everythin will seriously drop if he goes on lidat.. it's been quite a bad damage, n i seriously dun lyk tt..
it's lyk, y will i even haf the patience to wait for 2 yrs when i dun even c him cheirshin wad he has nw? ya, so tok abt stayin tght for long.. i dunno, n i dun wan to noe any longer if things go on diz way....
it's been lyk mths???
n all he tels mi is 'i juz wan to enjoy some time wif my frenz b4 i go NS..'
mi: it's okie but nt to te extent whereby u dun meet mi..
n ya, for the record, it was lyk a wk plus he didnt meet mi cuz of his frenz??
n being the stforward mi, i told him st to his face tt he's makin mi dislyk his frenz... n ya, probably him?? =)
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we tok on the phone juz nw... tok abt forensics, abt pilots, diff occupations...
everythin was fine...
til he had to hang up... n ya, i jolly well noe tt he wen b callin mi anytime soon after he hang up.... (thou he said he will cal mi b4 goin to bed - hang on, tot he said he was goin hm?? o well, forget it! n ya he said he will cal mi after he finish his supper after i requested.. so i said okie.. AN HOUR HAS PASSED BUT MY FREAKIN PHONE HASNT RANG............ THZ SHAWN =) )
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was still feelin okie til i saw the time.... one hr..... wow.... how honorable, ya??
i swear I'M SERIOUSLY GONNA B DAMN SARCASTIC WHEN I SMS/CAL HIM LTR!
shall tok abt the outing i had wif meow, hs n wei jin on sat another day when i'm in a beta mood...
5.14am -.-
FREAKING PISSED N OFF TO SLP!!!