which specialization???
y muz it always happen? y r they all the same?

tokin abt diz.. suddenly rmb tt i haf a livejournal a/c.. forgot abt it completely.. cant even rmb the password n username.. luckily i anyhow ti-kam.. othwise jia lat.. cuz there r alot of things tt i tok abt over in there.. everythin from the past.. whether it's happy or sad.. everythin's inside...

trying to look for some maya tutorials nw.. cant really seem to find the ones tt our grp needs.. going thru the steps of animating the keyframes now.. gosh.. how i can choose TD when i cant even get this rite?

den ltr still muz go for the briefing... sian.. wad can i choose? ytd was tellin mummy tt we'll haf to choose our specialization today.. so she ask mi which 1 i'm beta at.. i said none.. so how to choose?

yakult, anyone?
diz mornin was cheated by the sch's vendin machine twice!! den as i was smsin jie, i juz told her abt it.. den she said 'aiya.. i buy drink for u.. wad drink u wan?' n when i said yakult, she said okie.. n when i ended sch, she sms mi, told mi tt she'll b having a nap when i get hm.. n wans mi to wake her up.. my 2 sisters r juz waiting for mi to get hm to drink yakult together.. i was so happy tt she really gt the drink!! n expect how happy i was when they were even waiting for mi to drink together!! n when i told meow abt it, she was sayin my sis's really v gd.. i juz told her randomly tt i wanted a drink n she really gt it for mi.. n tt was despite the fact tt she didnt really haf enuff $$ on her so she cant spend much on her lunch.. tink she onli had 5 bucks on her.. so she spent the rest of the $$ on her lunch.. Sisters r bez in the world.. especially mine!!!

it's conversation day!!!
shawn's already sent mi the letter of request tt i need for the transfering of courses.. his sis helped too.. juz wished tt I can say thz to her personally too, n ignoring the fact tt i'm juz too afraid of her..

the buses haf been arriving after such a long wait! esp last wk.. on fri.. mi n shawn were waiting of rdifferent buses n the bus tt I was waiting for came onli after 20 mins n for his, 30 mins.. if we're goin somewhere else, it's perfectly okie! but nt when we were waiting for the buses to go to sch!! as a result, both of us were late for our classes.. n if shawn was to be marked late again, he may be debarred from his modular exam.. n i really cannot stand it any longer.. so i feedback to the company, requesting a reply.. n guess wad they replied? 'Thank u for ur reply. shd u haf any enquiries, pls cal XXXXXXXX, from mon to fri 8 am to 5pm n sats from 8am to 1pm..' HUH!!! it looks lyk just another automated reply.. lyk wad the? might as well dun reply mi wif such stuff rite?

anyway ltr muz go meet faizal abt the exco camp retreat.. goin to discuss the activities tt we'll b having.. tokin to meow hongsheng n wei jin abt having a cca nw.. can c tt they dun really feel lyk goin.. hs was saying tt they shd gif some excuses nt to go.. n i juz told them wad i tot.. i feel tt if a person joins a cca, he/she muz at least b responsible enuff to go.. nt by sayin tt there is hmwk to b done den u dun go.. unless it's realy piling? othwise tt is no excuse.. strongly believed in diz cuz I myself also has a cca.. i haf to commit lots of time.. n i haf to go everytime.. nt criticizing anyone, but I juz hope tt pple who join cca seriously will go.. c a-team? nt everyone is going.. n if ur the organizers of it, u'll understand how sad it is.. n it's nt onli a-team.. it can happen to anyone, anytime, anywhere.. even if it's juz a small gathering among u n ur frenz, how will u feel if ur frenz dun feel lyk going at all?

n nw we're tokin abt Xu Wei Lun.. wei jin says he wans to meet her.. but she already passed away ytd evening.. condolences to her family.. n may she rest in peace.. n came the topic which we're tokin abt nw.. is a person rite to commit suicide? is she juz takin his/her own life? no oth strings attached? wad abt ur parennts who gave ur life to u? wad abt ur oth half? even if u haf none of the above, ur frenz? u nv noe who else cares for u rite? when i said 'ur parents didnt gif u ur life n u juz repay them by dying juz lidat. u didnt earn this life.. they gave it to u..' n he asks mi a qn: 'so if they gif mi $$, does it belong to mi?' i said:'no.. cuz he didnt earn it..' he said:'n if i earn it myself?' of cuz in diz case, it's slightly diff.. it belongs to him partially, but dun u haf the sensibility to at least support them for the rest of their lives emotionally n financially?

n came another topic which we tok abt the whether killin harmful insects is rite.. n i dun tink it's rite.. yes, they may b weaker, but unless they're really harmful(lyk being able to cause dengue fever), othwise y kill?

n came the topic of fats n muscles.. hs was sayin tt gals cannot haf muscles? nonsense.. mi n meow both haf wad?

gosh.. i'm juz so tired.. juz did course feedback.. for my web dev, after submitting, i realized tt there wasnt a 'strongly agree' or 'agree' at all.. oops.. hehe.. but really ma.. cannot lie to myself.. othwise is we jia lat le.. tinkin of getting the books from goodybooks.com.. quite a nice site to spark off reading.. mayb shd juz get the bks.. onli 20 bucks for 4 bks.. worth it rite?

special thz to a special fren...
had a nightmare ytd.. dreamt tt he was still in contact wif her n they even went out together.. den when i called him, he was still wif her.. n i dunno when or where, i slapped him when he tried explained things to mi.. (cld be cuz of the fact tt he slept too early [11pm] ytd n in the dream, i dreamt tt he told mi he slept early when he was actually tokin to tok to her over the phone..) everythin shd b due to the awful past.. it juz keeps haunting mi.. juz wished tt it can stopped.. can somebody tel mi how to? told him tt I had a nitemare, but he didnt ask wad izzit.. so i didnt tok abt it further to him.. if he really wans to noe, he will ask..

tried doing abit of acpp assignment ytd.. really muz buck up.. dun wan to let my parents n my aunt down.. was telling meow abt the nitemare n she laughed.. she told mi nt to b paranoid n worrd too much.. juz told her tt i'm v tired cuz everythin hasnt been going smoothly.. told her it's the stress from sch n relationship tt's making mi feel so tired.. n she asks mi to tok abt it, so tt i'll feel beta.. but nth will make mi tok abt it anymore.. cuz i feel, nth ever changes... read meow's blog diz morning.. really thx to her.. she wrote some stuff to encourage mi.. she said: 'Note to Kailin: Hey gal dun stress ok!? hahaha... dun worry be happy.. No matter what happens juz believe in yourself(i know u will), and you know you tried your best right?' really thz to her.. she's my onli gd fren in diz sch.. no1 else.. dunno wad to do if there wasnt her at all.. there will be no1 to encourage mi, no1 to tok to mi, no1 to b lame wif mi, n no1 to laugh wif mi.. wen forget the day when both of us laughed our way from sch to amk interchange.. thz, meow..

it's juz another day...
CG test - cfm fail.. can compile but after putting in some codes tt r supposed to b there, it screwed up wif loads of errors.. n when it's time to hand up, i juz handed up the code.. othwise wad else can i do? den was waiting for mr petrus to access mi.. n when it's finally my turn, he looked at mi when he saw those errors.. n i explained to him tt if i dun put the skybox code, everythin will wk fine.. n he said: 'k nvm, u can go..' gosh! imagine how upset was I when he juz ask mi to go lidat.. halo!! at least ask mi on the things tt i've done ma.. juz ask mi go lidat.. sian.. mi n meow were saying tt diz test onli encourages us to quit diz course..

things haven been going really well for mi.. n there arent much communication between mi n shawn.. so, ya.. juz haf no passion for anything nw.. lost interest in almost everything.. wad can i do...?

juz another day..
got back my acpp paper.. 41 over 100.. so, fail... nv pass diz module's theory paper b4.. onli the assignments tt r helping mi.. n oth ppl always help mi wif the assignments.. so y still stay in diz course? depends.. diz wk go my sch's open hse n c wad oth courses i can opt to go for.. othwise.. no pnt staying in diz course anymore.. i dun even noe wad specialist track i shd tk next yr.. cant possibly tk TD track.. neither can i tk programming track rite?? so ya lo.. mr ng juz showed us our assignment grade.. luckily i gt a B for tt.. but still gt a F for my test.. n he said tt i shd wk harder for my assignment so i can get a pass for diz module.. tired of diz module.. dun even noe wad izzit tokin abt sths..

time is always nt enuff...
so!! was juz accessed by Mr Quah.. tt was the 1st time a teacher c my name n called mi 'MR'.. *argh!!* cant the teacher at least read my name 1st b4 saying MR??!

hmmm.. shouldnt have deleted the '3 foot ninja' game tt i did juz nw.. nw it seems lyk i didnt do anything.. n yup, it may juz affect the grades for diz module.. dunno by how much.. but every point counts rite? meow n I did some stuff.. yes, n it gt deleted.. so it ended up as if both of us didnt do anything at all.. forget abt it.. it's over since we've been accessed.. anyway, thz to Sherman & Desmond who helped in doing up the assignment too..

ltr gonna go back to sch.. for red cross!! yes!! red cross is always sth i'll look forward to!! as well as marion coming back.. tt boy ah.. dunno when he's coming back from Canada.. always tel mi soon but always nv noe when exactly it is.. was tinkin whether i shd go b a VI wif Kart n Nithya or nt.. juz afraid tt i wen b free to go for trainings cuz i'm already v bz wif A-Team.. dun wan to join as a VI n make myself even more bz leaving no time for Shawn.. thou he's joinin another music vox.. dun really tink we haf much time for each other anymore.. he's workin 2 days a wk.. we cant meet each other on Sundays.. he has his ministry meeting.. his samba trainings.. n exams r comin..!! how will we ever haf time for each other?

i was harrassed... in the mrt train.. T.T

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